Flashback to October 2018, I was just about to start my two weeks of annual leave, for two nights I was going to stay at Jamala Wildlife Lodge at Canberra Zoo for 2 nights. The day before, Coles proudly announced that we were all to be made redundant in 5 years time. At this stage I was only two years into my mortgage, so I immediately felt sick to my stomach. The price of staying at Jamala was almost $4000 for myself and my wife, so now I felt guilty that we were going there. By the time we got there I was shaking so badly that I couldn’t even sign in. What was meant to be a highlight in my life turned out to be the most miserable time of my life. At the end of my two weeks leave I was still sick with depression when I returned to work. I used up the rest of my sick leave and annual leave in the hope of getting better.